& if your heart starts t wander

tday apart from doing practically ntg at all & feeling-ohh-so terrible,
tday is the day i felt the most heaviest, not literally though.
tday had me & set me into deep thoughts, really really deep.
tday is the day that was rly so hard t let go with the fact that i can't do a shit abt it.
but t just watch & see it go away.
as much as how i want t hlp you, you & i both know very well i can't.
tday was the day that i let my thoughts & heart wander, w no limits, w no boundary.
even when i'm typing this, i feel so rahh-rahh.


not only did i thought abt you & bestf but of cs the rest who are enderared t this little tiny heart of mine.
yeah, i thought abt all of these stuffs before
but it wasn't put t much serious thought, deep enough, like tday.
yes, i tend t get pretty emotional at times.
very distinct, i know.
but i guess, thats just part of me, a part of who i am, a part who makes me, me.
& perhaps maybe, IF i wasn't emotional, then, i wouldn't be me, filzah right?
& how that goes fr the other characteristics of mine, be it the good ones or the flaws.
& i guess that goes fr many as well.


this was all written on hari raya 1st night?
now i'm not in sucha mood t continue.haha.so like i can't continue.
il probably continue when i'm all emo & moody.
althou i still dont feel like celebrating hari raya this year.
now i'm fine althou food poisoning almost killed me but i'm alright now.
& now that you're over at malaysia :((
i miss you badly, do you know.
sigh.
but ure coming back tmr:DDD

on a lighter note, bestf is gna be back! :DDDD
& no words can define how happy i am that bestf gna be back:D
lalalalalalala.
& i'm so happy that thers fried mars bar at lot 1.
everyday i tell it shall be :DDDDDD
&& i'm gg t terengganu soon nearing depavali i think.yay :)
t snorkel i think.
&& i'm damn happy cs i got t meet tayweiying & junnie fr fried mars bar!
& we went shopping.
retail therapy & fmb is the best therapy i tell you:DD
it helped alot.
il post the pictures soon aye.
till then :)