Resolutions fr 2010? Nah, i don't do resolutions. Well at least not anymore fr i've come t realise that resolutions don't stick. Things don't always go by the way you thought it ought t be. Things change, everything else changes, then resolutions will just be plainly nothing in a nutshell.

Although secretly. i'd loveeeee t meet Adam Brody and Jessica Stroup. Someone bring me t meet them pleeeeaaasssseeeee.

2009 has been really really downhard harsh. I lost my bestf, i lost my another half- fell out of love and i'm over it(so glad i'm over it thou it took me about a year anf a half & then il be gvg sarah tht "yes i know im-sucha-loser-kind-of-face" but farukh is the real loser, haha), i almost lost a dear pal(get well soon and you'll be able t be back on field in no time!) , MY POOR EYES:'( :'( , the year i cant wear contacts frever, school was crazy, it felt like no one was ever thr watching over me yknow? It felt lonely, cold, i felt a lot of pain. But things tht are out t kill you cn only makeyou stronger yeah? And i'm glad i survived. AND never, nt at any cost, will i wna re-live the bitter year 2009 ever agn. & of course i wouldn't survive 2009 without my pillars of strength. Thank you all you lil larlings :)

1. My fav girls in the whole wide world. Kim teck half included la. Haha. I've always been w them since sec 1. We watched each other grow frm being nerdy but still pretty t rly beautiful women now aye PGs? From naming our clique riptches. I still rmbr thou our fights, arguments and whtnots, us being girls, young girls, all the trashings, only us, in the classroom, crying, trashing, hugs and since then we became stronger than ever w bonds even tighter than giant covalent molecular bonds. From gg t camps tgt, bathing eating slping tgt, eating maggie mee(our favourite) we'd rather have maggie mee than mcdonalds. I'm serious. Gg over t june's planning camps, prom!, studying and everything else. They thought me that you dnt have t be skinny t be pretty but its all within. OH and yes hw cn i ever frget always having $2 fr reccess. And we'd skip reccess or fr me bring bread t sch and yes share food. Kimteck being the only guy, taking care of all of us girls and he's always the one tht i turn t whnever i've problems w zamn other than azri tht is. And i'm sorry if fr these past 2 years, i havent rly been ard and i think i still havent been ard yet either:( i'm sorry, my bad. i will soon i promise t make up t the times tht i've not been ard. Time t give them all back t you. I want t grow old w them, beautifully because with them, the place that we go t don't rly matter. Its like i just need their company even if it were t be in the middle of a jungle, it'll still be fun great awesome :)

2. Kino.

I love this picture the most. It makes me smile everytime i look at it. It motivates me yknow. It makes me see that impossible is nothing rly. You keep me gg. Everytime i say chemistry sucks, you say no t that. You rly brighten up my life like a rainbow in the sky. You're always thr whnever i study. You're always the 1st person tht i go t everytime i've problems tht i feel like no one else could ever understand but you could. You're one person whom has shown me patience is rly a person's virtue. Yknow, nvr have i seen you being angry before and i envy you fr that. You're always so carefree and happy. & you always putting others before you is rly admirable. You can read me like a book and i'm pretty much like you and you're pretty much like me. Britney, Wentworth Miller, Jesse McCartney, Prison Break, 90210 etc. Rmbr KFC buddy Meal. McDonalds hotcakes w sausage breakfast and coffee bean tht il deliver t your sch soon, because a promise is a promise. And all the songs. Like our song babe, i'm gg t rmbr you, you're gg t rmbr me :) ily. And yes, i spent my countdown w this girl which made it rly special compared t the other years.

3. sarah, farukh, peez and gang who's having a helluva time over @ sentosa i bet. i'm sorry if i didn't tag along despite much persuasions frm all of you. i just rly didnt felt like it. I just felt like being alone this countdown. loner mah. Hhahaha. Yknow i'd nvr tot our friendship would rly be this solid bcos frm wht ppl judge, i dnt belong t all of you. Our worlds are different. But heck right? I mean its so much more than just exterior and our backgrounds. Its just purely based on character. Let ppl judge. Us knowing it ourselves, its more than enough. I tell you guys every single thing even who i like nowwww which no one else ever will know. Its like we've been chilhood friends rightttt. And all the breakfast sessions, saturday dinners and whnever any of use run low on moolahs, we'd whip up quick meals, eating maggi, being reckless having fun. Its just awesome. Ya'll give the defination t true friendship- putting aside all the differences and distance ain't a hindrance at all. I know i cn count on ya'll anytime becos i knw you ppl will nvr desert me. even if i were t be at the crossraods nt knwing which path t choose, i knw ya'll will come along. with love.

4. To these lovely girls, yifang & yixin , the reason why i wna go t school. I sit beside them everyday, eat w them everyday and i can nvr get bored. I miss sitting w them in class and all the gossips. Hahaha giving nicknames t ppl. These girls have made me see tht i don't nd a man t be happy and tht i deserve soso much better. I thank this girls fr always sticking me up everytime i'm down. Sharing food. Our slpover when girls? :) Its always fun being ard them. Althou it has only been 2 years tht we've knwn each other, it felt like i've known them fr a lifetime. I feel like they're my very own sisters. Its rly way deep t the bones. They can accept me and look beyond my flaws. I'd have hated JC life without them. I know they're nvr out of reach. I know the girls like me and you. I can never forget the times you've covered my back.You helped me out and cut me slack.we'll stick tgt no matter what. i promise t be ther fr them too. y'know whatever life puts you through, il be thr fr you too. Words can't say wht love can do. i rly need them in this world of hypocripsy.

5. Kental, i'm sooooo tempted t put ur picture yknow. The one w the gun. Haha. Its always save the last fr the best bcs truly you're tha best. Thank you fr always being thr fr me always right frm the start. Its like you cn read me a like a book yknow. You always seem t knw whnever smtg's nt right, you nvr fail t notice. Like as if you're spying on me or smtg. Hhaaha, chill i'm just kidding. You always have your own ways of making me laugh, smile, painting my grey skies blue, nt literally okay muhammad nt literally. Like yknow gg down the chair, you immitating the emoticons esp the rly retarded smiley face(HAHA!) , so much so fr being ahdam tohdy and so much more. Need i say more? Thank you fr instilling so much happiness, fr the listening pair of ears, fr always having my back, never fail to entrust you w my worries and fears despite what this world has in store fr you. Yes indeed, the coolest loser ever. You're always making sure that the smile tht i wear on my face nvr wears away fr always ensuring me tht things will be fine. You always make lil things special. And during A lvl period and up till now, fr the constant reminders of rest sleep despite the need t study as well and YES HOW CAN I EVER MISS OUT cheating my feelings right anot homie till i feel like i can get a heart attack yknow?? Esp the leg and the operation one! Hahah but all fr a good cause fr its your own special way too :) Thank you muhammad w much heartfelt gratitude. XOXO, GG :))

Yknow hw some hearts have a star on em', all of the ppl abv do.

and as fr love, "Love is such a strong word. When we were just little kids, we've always thought love was all abt hugs, kisses and happiness. But as we grow older, we've also come t realise that love isn't just abt happiness; it's also abt tears, rejections and riding through the pain that each heartaches bring."

-runawaytrain

which was why i've kinda sworn off love actually. Honestly speaking, i'm afraid. Its like once u’ve been hurt u’re so scared t get attached agn,like u have this fear tht every person u start t like is gg t break ur heart. which is why i swore off love- nvr t fall in love ever! but t hell w that, cs thats impossible rightt. i'm a human w feelings and i live in a place in called sg. bt yknow like sometimes once is just too much. Only victims of hartbreakers will knw exactly hw i feel. The worst feeling ever. But whtever it is, i know i deserve better :)

2010 please be good.

Here's t ushering & embracing a better 2010.

Muuuu-aaaahhhhhh:)